coping

Just another #blacklivesmatter #poem

I’m feeling all the feels right now and coping as best I can. That means lots of reading and writing. If you don’t want to see any more of this, well then, look away. For everyone else, I hope you get something out of this. Thank you to everyone who’s been so supportive.

Just Another One

Sun shining bright, but you don’t see me.
You skirt around me and turn your head.
It’s too easy to pretend I’m blank space instead.

Blue skies and rays of sun, but you don’t see me.
You stare at my hands, waiting and watching.
Faceless brown hands about to do something?

Puffy white clouds and a breeze, but you don’t see me.
Walking, jogging, riding- exercise, that’s good.
You’re scared of brown shadows in your neighborhood.

Pitch black of night, with lights blinking bright.
You see the brown shadow on the ground.
You look away and make no sound.

Sun shining on a new day, but you never saw me.
You watched me disappear and never said my name.
You never looked me in the eyes. Now you are to blame.

I didn’t matter to you and now I’m gone.
Just a brown shadow.
Just another one.

Thank you for taking the time to read this post. If you like it let me know and share it with others. See you next time, Toi Thomas. #thetoiboxofwords #blacklivesmatter

#IWSG September 2014: Transitions

Created and hosted by the Ninja himself, Alex J. Cavanaugh, the Insecure Writers Support Group posts the 1st Wednesday of every month. Click the image to learn more or sign up.

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I often how well others handle transitions, those times spent in between one part of your life and other. I don’t think I handle them too badly, but I know I have room for improvement. I also wonder how one identifies whether they are in a place of transition rather than a consistent state of being. For instance, in terms of relationships, there the dating/courtship period and there’s marriage; the transition between the two is called an engagement. What do you call when you’re in a place somewhere between being a newbie/novice and being on top/an expert in your field? I feel like that’s where I am.

I’m been writing and blogging for about four years now and I’m still no expert and definitely not on top, but I’m no novice either. Sometimes I count my goals to give me perspective, but lately I’ve learned that counting them isn’t enough. I also have to reevaluate to make sure to pursuing what truly best and simply chasing after something for all the wrong reasons.

I guess the point of all this is that I feel like I’m ready to move on to bigger and better things, but I’m just not there yet. So, do I continue down this path the same way I’ve been going, try something new, or try to stopping wanting so much? I seriously don’t see the latter as a viable option.

Do you feel like you are in a transition or have you been in one? How did you get out? I’d seriously love to know.

After listening to me ponder my own query, here’s something that you may or may not be interested in and that may put a smile on your face. I’ve just relaunched my You Tube channel with all new programming and just aired my first episode. You can check it out here if you’d like.

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After hanging out with Alex, be sure to stop by and visit this month’s co-hosts: Laura, Mark Koopmans, Shah Wharton, and Sheena-Kay Graham!

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Click here to visit other IWSG blogs and sites to receive and share inspiration and support. (This month, I’m #151).

Thank you for taking the time to read this post. If you like it let me know and share it with others. See you next time, Toi Thomas. #thetoiboxofwords

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