Youthful Frights vs Adult Fears #WEPFF Challenge No. 2 featuring Dolls & Eternal Curse Series #amwriting #amreading #movie

Well, I’d like to start off by saying, Happy Birthday to Me! That’s right. I’m the big 3 5 today and not ashamed one bit. Reaching 35 years of age unscathed, non-committed, non-incarcerated, and non-impoverished is something to be happy and proud about. I am blessed to have lived another year, simply put.

Now let’s talk about childhood fears…

When I was a kid (and let’s be honest, even now sometimes) I collected stuffed animals and toys. I wasn’t much into dolls, but where my sister had Barbie I had G.I. Joe. I did, however, love teddy bears. One year for my sister’s birthday, my parents decided she could have a sleepover and pick out three movies to watch, and one could be something none G or PG as long as they approved it first. I still to this day don’t know how she got this movie passed them, but I think it had something to do with the title.

Now at that time, I was nine years old (turning 10 in four months) and my sister was turning 12. She picked this movie thinking it would be corny and not really scary. Ha. I was the only one out of her bunch of friends to actually finish watching it, which I still regret to this day. I wasn’t even supposed to be at the party, not that I wasn’t invited, but I wasn’t interested in all the girly stuff that happened before the movie watching began. In a rare instance of kindness, back then (she’s lovely now), my sister gathered me from my room to watch the movies because she knew how much I enjoyed films; even at that age I knew more trivia than all the adults around me.

So, what all this boils down to is that after watching the movie, I realized that I needed to find a place to sleep. My room was out of the question. Every toy and doll in that freakish scary movie was in my bedroom along with dozens more. I’m pretty sure I remember waking up in the bathroom tub to the sound of my mom yelling, “What did you do to your sister?”

I’ve watched this movie since and it’s not nearly as scary, but still very creepy … Who makes these movies!

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I find dreams to be nerve-wracking sometimes. When it’s a good dream you don’t want to wake up from it and when it’s a bad dream that’s all you want to do. I don’t throw around the word hate a lot, but I hate it when I’m having a bad dream and I can’t wake up from it, even though I know it’s not real. I can’t stand that sense of helplessness, of not being able to do anything about my situation. It’s like being mugged or trapped. That’s my adult fear and I used that idea to write the following passage. Not sure if I quite captured the sense of desperation I wanted.

Looking for general feedback here. Even though this piece has been published, the beauty of self-publishing is that I can update my work anytime I choose. 😉

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     He looked down toward the ground and saw an attractive young woman carrying a large pail into a barn. Her skin was freckled and pale, and she had rosy cheeks. Her hair was long and straight, and it was black like the night. She seemed so familiar to him, but he didn’t know her. Giovanni watched as the young woman filled feeding troughs with water to be cleaned. As she reached for a scrubbing brush, Giovanni could see that someone or something was following her. He sensed that trouble was on the way. He tried to call out to her, but she could not hear him. His voice made no sound. Giovanni left the tree and swooped down to the ground to achieve a closer look.

     There he saw a creeping perpetrator bouncing from beam to beam in the rafters of the barn. Drool slipped from the monster’s mouth while it hovered over the unknowing young woman. Giovanni tried to fly up to see this fiendish stalker, but he couldn’t lift his feet off the ground, and his wings would not flap. Giovanni knew something bad would happen, he could feel it in his heart, but it seemed he could do nothing to stop it. He did not understand. Why was this happening? How could he appear to be so powerful, be so angelic, and not be able to help someone in need?

     Giovanni refused to give up his pursuit. He pushed his body forward and moved from door to door, and window to window, trying to get in to warn and protect the young woman. Looking through a window, Giovanni finally saw the villain’s full horror. He established a clear vision of the attacker as it leaped down from the ceiling toward the woman. It was the most hideous monster he’d ever seen, much worse than his own reflection.

     A twisted and mangled troll with charcoal for skin on a hairless body stalked about. It had empty holes carved out of its skull where eyes once were. There were two large dull spikes protruding from its hunched back, where it looked as though wings had been violently ripped from its body. Its hands were made of jagged bones held together with rotting ligaments, and its feet crackled as it moved along the floor.

     In the troll’s hands were two long golden rods that whipped back and forth almost like lassos. Each rod was attached to the end of a large iron spike that punched through the shoulders of a young man’s dying body. The rods held up the young man’s body as though he were a puppet being pulled by strings. To the young woman, however, the troll simply appeared as a shadowy figure lingering around the painfully disturbed and ailing young man moving toward her.

     The troll maneuvered the young man’s body around the girl for attack, delivering blow after blow.  The monster had taken over this young man’s body; it was using him as a weapon to attack this poor girl for what seemed to be the sheer enjoyment of it. It laughed a loud cackle as it threw the girl down to the ground, tearing her raggedy dress. Giovanni could see the girl’s anguish and could hear her screams. Throbbing empathetic pain consumed him in every place the girl was struck, but Giovanni could do nothing to stop it.

     Giovanni began to cry out, weeping and sobbing. He tried to look away and he tried to get away, but he couldn’t. That’s when it began to happen. He became consumed with anger and hatred. Giovanni’s body grew hot and began to sizzle. Smoke and steam began to rise up from his body as his wondrous glow began to fade and he became shrouded in darkness. Everything around him began to catch fire as he began morphing into anger. The smell of burning wood and flesh assaulted his tortured senses and Giovanni knew he was changing.

Eternal Curse: Giovanni’s Angel 4th Ed. Copyright © 2015 Toinette Thomas

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#IWSG August 2015: Promotion without a budget.

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I know I’m not the only one who takes on too much and expects too much of the world around me, but I can only feel my pain and frustration. I feel so silly sometimes thinking about all these grand ideas that will never come to pass. I mean some of them might or at least something close to them might, but for the most part, I’m sure I dream way bigger than I can actually climb; plus I’m out of shape.

So here I am struggling to publish one story, struggling to complete another, struggling to write one, and dreading the promotion of another. And none of this begins to scratch the surface of other responsibilities I’ve taken on and I’m afraid to back down. I keep taking on more with the intentions to better or alter my life in a manner that would be more beneficial to my health and happiness, but perhaps I should just suck it up and be miserable, save for the times I’m writing and hanging out with my family.

I have an amazing idea for a blowout promo, but I don’t have the following or influence to pull it off. In cases like this people simply make an investment and hire someone to do it. I’ve looked at all the possibilities and to do what I want will cost more that I’ll probably make in my first three months of sales. To be honest, after paying for an editor, I really won’t have any budget left to do anything. Oh well, I can’t give up. I’ll figure something out, even if I can’t get what I want. I guess something is better than nothing…

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I hope I haven’t bummed you out too much. I’ll keep dreaming and hopefully you will too.

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Posts from the Past: EC:GA – The Angels of Eternal Curse

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These are previous posts that have been dusted off, updated, and freshly presented to an audience that’s never seen them. These limited posts originate from the companion blogs I’ve written for books in my Eternal Curse Series as well as others down the road. Some information may be omitted.

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From 40 Days and Night of Eternal Curse : The Angels of Eternal Curse

There are several different types of Angels that will make an appearance in this series, but there are only three that are actually described in the first book. A Seraph and an Arch are two types of angels that are depicted in this first book. While the Seraph is unnamed in the first book, it will be more closely viewed in the books to come. There is a very brief description of another angel in the first book, but to describe it now would just cause confusion.

The seraph of Giovanni’s Angel is described as being twice the size of an Archangel, with four sets of wings, and the head of an Ox. The significance of this angel is not explained in the first book, but is meant to entice the reader into wanting to know about the background story that is slowly unraveled throughout Giovanni’s dream struggle.

The Archangel that is depicted in the story is a more traditional take on an angelic hero. The Arch is tall, lean, and muscular with golden glowing skin and powder white wings.  Each of the Angels is depicted as warriors carrying very distinctive weapons.  The significance of this particular Arch is also not explained in the first book, though followers of angelic history may be able to figure it out which one it is. Never the less, the whole story and all the players will be explained in full, later in the series.

The Angels of EC: GA carry weapons made of precious metals and gems, and while their weapons do make impact with their foe, the real battle occurs internally, mentally, and spiritually. Yes, I know, I said spiritually…Remember we’ve already determined that spiritual conflict can make for a good story and be really cool. I promise.

40 Days and Nights of Eternal Curse Copyright © 2012 Toinette Thomas

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Posts from the Past: EC:GA – The mythology behind the story

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These are previous posts that have been dusted off, updated, and freshly presented to an audience that’s never seen them. These limited posts originate from the companion blogs I’ve written for books in my Eternal Curse Series as well as others down the road. Some information may be omitted.

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From 40 Days and Night of Eternal Curse : The mythology behind the story

The mythology behind this story is slated to be told in greater detail, in the third installment of the series. I will however provide some insight to it now, as it is introduced in this first book. Understanding where, how, and when everything started is part of the struggle Giovanni faces, and the reader must struggle through this understanding to see how it all ties in together at the end. I hope that this makes for an enjoyable and unpredictable reading experience.

The mythology I used for my story comes from what I know and have learned just from living my life, but I have added my own twist to it. As I am depicting images, figures, and scenes of biblical accounts, I want to assure any and all my readers, that though it is greatly influenced by traditional Judeo Christian philosophy, what I have written is completely made up. It is meant to make for a good story and is in no way my opinion of the truth or “what really happened.” It’s just a story and should in no way be taken as theological doctrine.

Now that that’s all cleared away…this is how it goes…During the Fall, as many know it, or the descent of Satan, there were two angels who were the best of friends. They each became caught on opposing sides of the celestial war. Everything that happens in Giovanni’s Angel, is a direct result of the conflict between these two estranged friends, Seth and Marcos. The extent to which their disagreement affects the current story can only be determined by reading the book.

In this first installment, the reader receives a glimpse of Heaven that will be visited later, along with a look into Hell. The reader is provided with a preview of what is to unfold later in the series. A unique, though maybe not completely original, depiction of Angels and Demons is provided that should open up the reader’s mind to accept what is to come later in the series.

40 Days and Nights of Eternal Curse Copyright © 2012 Toinette Thomas

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Posts from the Past: EC:GA – The importance of death

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These are previous posts that have been dusted off, updated, and freshly presented to an audience that’s never seen them. These limited posts originate from the companion blogs I’ve written for books in my Eternal Curse Series as well as others down the road. Some information may be omitted.

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From 40 Days and Night of Eternal Curse : The importance of death

This story deals with death in many ways and many times. I did not set out to write a story fill with death and don’t feel that what I’ve written is in any way somber or sad. I do think that I came to realize, while writing this story, that though most people don’t like to even think about it, everyone knows that they will have to deal with it sooner or later. I tried to address death as an inevitability that is just another part of life.

Death occurs throughout the telling of this tale, but none of the instances are the same. Some of the characters die peacefully and quietly while others die violently. With death comes grief and in this story I get to deal with many phases of grief including coping and denial. I have also described to very different funeral scenes, one that does not help the grieving process, and one that does.

All of the events that occur after the instances of death also allow the reader an opportunity to process their own feelings about the situations depicted in the story, as well as instances in their own lives. Readers will find that they either relate to these situations or not; they may even decide whether or not they like or agree with the way these deaths are handled. Either way, I hope the reader appreciates these images, and that they somehow help the reader to deal with any death they may have encounter in their life.

40 Days and Nights of Eternal Curse Copyright © 2012 Toinette Thomas

This article may be part of a collection that has now been published in book form. To learn more and see all the tidbits not mentioned here, please visit the Books tab to find the corresponding book for this article.

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